Venus retrograde is now stationed, as is Saturn retrograde. This one-two punch probably has all of us looking back on problematic Venus features, with me it has been my relationships. Adding in Saturn, not surprisingly, my more serious relationships…or nooses as I like to see them. When I was a kid, I was so convinced I would never find someone…well let me tell you, the world is populated with someones.
Basic Sun sign Astrology will stress how important stability and marriage is for a Capricorn. For Cancers (my Moon) it is like a life line to have established family. Oh and I have done it. As a matter of fact 3 times now. My saving grace currently is I would not want a relationship started with the way the sky has been since 2010. Just imagine that first meeting chart!
The retrogrades coincided with my wondering why I am so flighty. A good friend pointed out that when someone makes a overt flirt in my direction, I loose interest in them. And I do. Like a dog that has caught the car he was chasing, I am like, “great, now what do I do with it”. For the longest time I figured it was the 12th house Sun, doing what it does best, self-flagellating. I would find people that I really eventually did not like. And the ones I did care about…I sent them off to the Sunset before even having a chance. Sadly, the Sun still gets some credit for that, the whole I don’t deserve better, lets go eat worms. I guess in someways I am glad I was with who I was with. I would not have wanted to live that life with someone I genuinely cared for. And I believed I deserved the life I have had. The outer Planets have all paraded over my 12th Sun (oppose Moon) and the nodes and the Asc/Desc. Life has been tough, and in away I wanted to protect people from me… Now that is a 12th house Sun talking!
I have an Aquarian Venus (and Saturn) and believe me there is a lot of mileage in amateur astrologer’s readings. What I see it has come down to is my value of universal love and mostly freedom. I am finding I am happy being independent. I realize that does not mean I have to be a spinster ( no one would accuse me of that anyway…I should have had a wash and wear wedding dress.) Venus is at odds with my Luminaries. Where I always thought I wanted the comfort and warmth of family…I really just avoid all the games together and just hang out with friends. Now my kids, we are good together for the most part. We cover all three air signs with our Venus(es). So, we see eye to eye on important stuff like what color to make the rug in the hallway 🙂
I was working on a playlist. Venus was at the helm. I picked, Billy Joel’s My Life, the Rolling Stones, Ruby Tuesday, and others along the theme of…”go away”. So maybe that Venus does work well with the whole 12th house ego theme. I think this retrograde period did emphasize that others have had to deal with rejection, not even knowing it was all about my own issues. But then who believes “this isn’t about you, this is about me”? I made poor Neptunian type choices, and though the ride could be fun, it wasn’t good for anyone. A part of me wants to reach out and say sorry to all of the relationships or dates, but that darn Saturn retrograde is there to remind me that life did not stand still…leave them alone. What is the future bringing? I don’t know, but hopefully I will be more aware of what little game I am playing within myself. And definitely look at a calendar, the skies are still a mess.