Transits pass and effect each and everyone of us so differently and it seems sometimes they pass without effect at all.
I had read an interview by Astrologer Robert Hand. I am not sure which of the many www addresses it may reside at, as I will always read any of his interviews regardless where they are found. If I find it after writing this blog, I will include the link in the comments. He was explaining about a reading he was doing for a client. The Natal chart and the Transits that had transpired recently spoke of a time that sounded like a Neptune melt down…. drugs, escapism, losses, the usual bad wrap. He was perplexed when the client said it was the most wonderful period of her life. As it turned out, the client was an actress (Neptunian illusions) and had a successful run as a character facing those life traumas of homelessness, addiction, etc.. The conclusion is that we will live through our transits one way or another. Now the question is, can we chose how we learn these lessons?
I was looking into forensic Astrology and found a few aspects for violence repeated by various of the Astrologers. I knew I had to have had a marker, as I had spent a portion of my life with a violent partner, barely escaping death a few times. We have to wonder if it is conditioning, family patterns, or just bad choices. Is it all? Is it none? The fact it happened means it was in the chart. One of the strongest indicators apparently to have a planet at the Saturn/Mars midpoint. A little quick calculation in the head… and a sickly realization that is the spot of my natal Venus. Being single started sounding really good at that moment. I think what further was bothersome is Venus is the Lord (ruler) of my 4th house (that before the musical chairs of house placements, our death was found in the 4th)
I thought and thought…. not all relationships have been bad, and the last one was even worse.. why and what was happening? I am sure transits have much to say, as my Sun in the 12th has been pummeled by all the outers and now Pluto is a few degrees away. But some were good, really good. I am currently almost obsessed with reading of violent murders. I had been before and so many find it tasteless and taboo… but I read those books of Narcissism, obsession, and deadly violence when the rest of my life was balanced. When I would put them away and try the peaceful tofu lifestyle, it appeared it would open a vaccum to sweep in those very Narcissistic types.
I am again at a point of reinventing myself yet again. Knowing that this a prominent part of my life, I think I will again go work in women’s safe homes. As my kids finally leave home, I will probably look to taking in foster kids again. This reminds me so of the Hand interview.
Nicholas DeVore lists the degree of homicidal tendencies as 9 degree Virgo where my Uranus is located in the 8th. Does this mean I am interested in them, or that I could commit homicide, or that I would be a victim? Something to ponder I suppose….. I have the degree of the Astrologer on the Vertex, and another Astrologer degree conjunct my Pluto, maybe I should dive in to forensic Astrology… (oddly 3 of my angles are a music degrees…. sigh, a music student from the beginning…. and a groupie forever ;P)
I hope there will be some comments I can bounce around. This is new ground looking at what has been there in front of me all of this time and still not sure I am seeing it correctly.