In my mind, the song by Annie Lennox, “Feels Just Like Walking on Broken Glass” is playing over and over. The good thing is I am mixing it up with her other song she performed, “Little Bird”…guess it is mixed feelings alright.
I am finding myself in a real life version of the movie, Groundhog Day. As with rx planets, we repeat the same situations and finally right them or not and pay for it later. I am in the same situation I was in last year when Saturn was at the same degree of 16° Virgo as it is retrograding now. So Saturn is hitting my natal Pluto again! I am scary broke at the moment, just hanging by my fingernails.(Saturn transit in 8th…my income and resources come from individuals not a normal steady paycheck.)
So like last September, I lost the internet (texting this to Ryoin from my cell) my car broke down, my daughter’s best friend is spending a few weeks over here, and a brief love affair is rekindling…just like September.
I am not sure how to fix most of this, though I have reached a conclusion that I really don’t care for it. I have found no man is an island for as much as I wished that could be the case with me. Sigh, I do need others after all. Venus rx is heading over to my progressed Venus at 3° Aries. Today we had the Sun, Moon, Venus, and Mercury all conjunct in Aries and conjunct my natal Jupiter and my progressed Venus. Uranus transit is also in my second house up on my solar arc Venus. Issues of self-worth are paramount… So when I got stood up again… I blew up! I over-reacted, after all Jupiter was involved. The planetary lovefest in Aries squares both my Sun and Moon…I was a ticking time bomb. Saturn over my Pluto? Yeah, I told him good bye. Will I regret it? I already do, but all the play in the second house forced someone (that would be myself) to show me respect. Something that hurts this much has to be good for you, right? Now to focus on income and worth…damn rx.
P.S. Rx the lessons keep coming. I blew up at someone I shouldn’t have. It was actually me that was the problem. I never drew a boundary back in September. So how was anyone supposed to guess I would become angry? That got me thinking, I have done this my entire life. I allow others to walk all over me and then I blow up and walk away. Okay, so I need to communicate my needs and expectations from the onset instead of punishing someone for not reading my mind. Sigh, so i am passive aggressive…nice.